It all happens for a reason...

Its taken me a while to realise how much of a bitch life is. Things for me were getting so amazing and then baam! things just seemed to be going wrong. So wrong that I felt unable to stand back up after being knocked down so many times. The thing is, standing up after being knocked down so many times is one of the hardest things to do in life. thankfully, I did stand up and I really did tie a knot on my rope so I didn't fall. What's helping now is that I am free from Education for four months and free from exams...although waiting for these exams results is going to be a killer!!

Anyway...

on a happy note... I've fallen for Mr Nice Guy again. Can you believe it? The thing is I'm also head over heels in craziness for the new guy...the guy I said I didn't mind if we never spoke again because the other night was so lovely. The thing is...I do mind. Now that we are speaking I wish he'd read the messages between the two lines!! Although, it doesn't help that I told him I didn't want a relationship. The thing is...I hate relationships because I feel claustrophobic. I can't think of anything worse than being besotted with someone when going into University.i want to go to Uni and enjoy freshers and be CAREFREE! my mothers friend, well her son went on a boys holiday recently and rang his girlfriend every night! I want to go on a girls holiday and just enjoy my cocktails in the sun...as you can tell, I myself am far from being perfect girlfriend material. Speak soon guys and keep reading!! Lots of love The Girl Has An Opinionxxx

One Step Forward. Two Steps Back.

I was going to make this blog really negative because right now I am feeling slightly sad about everything i ruin. Instead, I'm going to make people aware of the good things in my life. ONE I have a wonderful sister. This morning she brought my friend and I a cup of tea to us in bed and biscuits. Sadly, it's only recently that I'm seeing how lovely and wonderful my sister is. She may be younger but most of the time she could be my mum. For years we used to argue and hate each other but I guess as we both grew up we realised we needed to be there for each other when the wicked step dad comes along, there is a messy divorce, every grand parent is being struck with cancer and because we now live separately we appreciate each other more. TWO I have two amazing best friends. They are such wonderful people and both will be stars. I love spending so much time with them and they could be a brother or sister to me because my family love them too. Right now they are sending me cuddles and asking me what's wrong because I'm being so negative. We might all be different ages and doing all different things with our lives but we each make time for one and other and the kettle is always ready to boil for them. THREE I really do have so much more than some people in this unfortunate world, I may not have a multi million pound house or a garage full of sports cars and billions of pounds in the bank. Instead, I have a loving family. Lots of food and never go hungry. Never thirsty and always have something to wear.

So when feeling negative and when you think everything is going against you. Just think of all the positives in your life.

When you come to the end of your rope, tie a knot and hang on.The Girl Has An Opinion x

Tea, Sick and Smiles

Tea has been my saving grace today! It has been filling me with enough energy to stay awake all day and has been easing away the bad head I seem to be suffering from.

Why am I feeling so bad, you ask?

Well last night a lovely friend of mine invited us all around for a small gathering. It was a nice little night but after an hour everyone seemed to be tipsy especially after playing some awful drinking game, "Beer Pong". Disaster struck very fast. Firstly, it was boys against girls so while they kept meeting a target forcing us to drink whilst they still had all these full cups. Secondly, beer and I are not a very...well you may say a friendly mixture and so before long I volunteered to pester a lovely older friend to get us some cheap vodka. Now...what could go wrong? Well, before I could even have some vodka it was all gone and that's when trouble erupted. Although, I happily missed the first disaster as (I must use nicknames so no identities are revealed)Ginge, Teeth and I had perched ourselves away from the loonies to watch the stars but when we did return...

I have never seen so much sick in my life

the vileness of it was so surreal. I won't go in to too much detail, don't worry! So after one drunky had been sent home and the host herself carried to the house THE CLEAN UP BEGAN and well I have to say the girls did themselves proud!! Finally time for peace maybe some sleep? It was already gone two but instead I stayed awake all night talking away. It was quite beautiful watching the stars turn invisible to the eye and the sun to make a visible appearance. So that is my little drama about a very funny sleepover. Lots of love, The Girl Has An Opinion

P.S.

In a previous blog I mentioned about how I had made a choice between two boys but I have to say...I think I'm falling for someone else, someone you would least expect but awh lovely little readers I'm in a very happy content mode. I actually don't even think I'd mind if we didn't even speak again because I was so happy! We shall see what happens Xxxxxx

http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=Uyb67x1C2Dg

The Wreck Returns.

Last night I found myself crying my eyes out whilst reading an unofficial biography about Robbie Williams and Gary Barlow. I have no idea where the emotional wreck came from but it made a dramatic return last night. I suddenly felt the urge to watch Robbie's music videos. The early ones just after he quit/was kicked out of Take That. I felt so sad for Robbie I honestly thought I could see sadness in his eyes and when listening to No Regrets I just wanted to give him a massive hug!! Most of you reading this will be laughing at what I just wrote

but I have a serious EMOTIONAL WRECK problem!

Only last week I thought to myself maybe the wreck has left my system but oh no. Obviously not. I don't know what sets me off but when I start...well disaster strikes. It's quite bad actually but I have realised that music plays a big part in my emotional states. You could say I listen to quite depressing music...the truth is I just like music to have a real message. Therefore I like to listen to Dido, Coldplay, Snow Patrol etc. like right now as I write this blog, I have Coldplay on shuffle. What I like about these artists and bands that their songs contain messages and advice that not even my closest friends could give me. Not that Dido or Christ Martin know what I am personally going through at certain points in my life but you can tell that they have been through something very similar. I think that's why I was so emotional and happy when I recently went to see Coldplay. I go to a lot of gigs and when I leave, each time I say

"that was the best concert ever!!"

but Coldplay really was. You could feel the love in the atmosphere it was electric. You wouldn't even feel that much love radiating off people in a wedding. Everyone left that concert smiling, even a mile away from the Stadium everyone was still singing Viva la Vida. It was an amazing atmosphere and that night the emotional wreck inside of me said "If I die tonight I will die happy! As I had seriously never felt happier!! I wonder if any of you little readers have ever felt like that?? Lots of love The Girl Has An Opinion xxx P.S. enjoy this....

Who Am I?

I find being a teenager very very tricky. It's the age where you think you are an adult and worthy of more respect than you get and the age where the media paint a very negative portrayal of you. It's also the age where you are supposed to find yourself... Well personally I don't think I will find myself for atleast another ten years because I really have no clue who I am. It is this lack of personal knowledge that makes it really hard to follow one of life's most simplest request

Be Youself!

So until I realise who I am actually am, I shall simply have to act the complete opposite of people I dislike. However, this lack of knowing who I am means that members of the opposite sex do not have a clue what i am about. Some see a sweet and innocent girl who is quite shy whilst others see a girl who just wants a good time and fun. It's the girl who just wants a good time and fun that always seems to be in a pickle. My friends would certainly agree with this. Just recently I had to decide whether to let the shy girl slowly continue talking to a charming young man who was full of compliments or whether I should slowly erase myself from his inbox. So that the good time girl could have a couple of weeks having fun with someone who probably didn't even know how she was feeling. Luckily, this time after a very long consideration I think I made the correct decsision to talk to....(can you guess who I decided?) It's all these decisions I guess that will help me decide who The Girl With An Opinion is... Sadly, for those of you wondering who she is you may have to wait several years. So I shall leave you with this.

To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment.

RALPH WALDO EMERSON That my lovely readers is for those who know who they are and those needing a little inspiration. Yours The Girl Has An Opinion xx

Hello Everyone! It has been such a long time since I last wrote. So most of you will have forgotten all about me! I do apologise for taking so long to write another blog but I have been kept busy with numerous exams that have put large amounts of pressure and stress on myself. I'm sure most of you have had to deal with this or are at this moment stressing about their exam tomorrow...well my one piece of guidance is

just believe

also colour co-ordinating work really helps. I really was surprised that I survived the exam season and didn't have a mental breakdown. Although, those closest to me probably thought I was having some sort of breakdown. It really is horrible when you are the person who worries so much that at the beginning of exams people move away from you because you stress them out. That is me. I can't help it though. I just care too much. It really shocks me when people are like "nah I ain't revising I cba" I can't help think to myself...do these people really not want to do something with their life? Personally, I cannot wait to leave my small home town. It's not that I dislike the actual place it's because I dislike the narrow minded-ness that comes with being a resident in my small town. Now, I think I'm going to leave it there for today but I promise I'll write again soon. I also promise that I shall continue writing pointless stuff in my blog. Yours The Girl Has An Opinion Xx P.S. This is for you, I'm not just all mouth...I follow through my actions